Saturday, November 12, 2005
its been such a rough day...in general, ive been emotionally disturbed.
the major one?.. well, ive felt so weird after my maths paper... i think its the thot of kat leaving sg that nite for good....
i dont understand.. i couldnt wait for her to go.. and now when shes gone, i want her back.....tears just keep running down my face... its so hard to let go.. why? and u havent even had ur weddin yet..wat would happen then???? i hate mohd for taking you away..... why... u dont have to go... uve always made a stand for ur right, wat happened here... why must u leave everyone and everything behind?
when i came back home from the airport, and walked towards my room...i saw ur room door.. with the lights switched off.. it was deserted...it was empty.. u were not there.. and u wont be any more.... i havent cried this heavily all my life... this is so painful.................when would my tears run out? why wont it? im so tired of crying so heavily that my everything hurts... i cant even breathe rite and my head aches..
im really sorry if i made ur life a living hell.. i am...from deep deep deep down... if only u could see the tears im cryin and feel the pain im going thro cuz of ur absence...
haiz.... u couldve at least hugged me..............
i think i need to sleep or else my heads gonna explode and my heart fractured. so good nite.... im praying for mamas,urs, bakury and abudi's safety...
youre missed already.
Jammin at
1:17 AM